Descendants of The Sun

Its been a long time right...

So many stories but let me just update my blog today with sharing it with you my new addictions..that makes me jumping joy every wednesday to friday...

a little bit of flashback..

I am a freak die hard fan of korean drama since winter sonata that was on 2002 when i was still a university student. I remember back then when i was so into that drama that i willing to spend my money just to buy vcd of the drama that cost me RM99 (this is consider expensive for a student that just dependent on her scholarship). My family scolded me but well i am that kind of person. when i really like something i will buy it even it is expensive! yeay my bad!

But somehow...during in 2011 i stop watching any korean dramas...maybe because i was busy building my own family. Just got married on busy raising my son (now i got 3 sons..) and i have no ASTRO that time...so i am bit 'katak dibawah tempurung' because i didnt know any new korean dramas nor actor or actress except Bae Yong Joon and Choi Ji Woo (ya they were winter sonata leads). 

but towards the end of 2014..now that i have ASTRO (basic one, only have KBS Channel).. out of blue i click to KBS Channel and there it goes Oh My Venus.. but i was not thoroughly following that story at first because i know its gonna be series and my life schedule was not just allowed me to stuck to it...but thanks to my friend kiera...she introduced me this so called online website that u can watch online korean dramas. SO from there my life changed. And I started to hook to korean drama. AGAIN.

so what happened.. i saw teaser for this drama Descendants of the sun (DOTS) and what caught my eyes is that the female lead Song Hye Kyo. Because i saw her in Autum in my heart ( I dont really like this drama because of its ending and personally i don like the hero i like the other one, won bin) and then full house and i never knew that she did acting in Hotelier (i just found out recently). So  i was like..wah i should see this drama i kinda miss SHK acting. The male lead...i dont really know him..so i just ignore him.

But what happened...1st episode..i was like 'love at the first sight'...their chemistry was SUPERB ..their lines was funny...straight forward...and the love between army and doctor was just perfect!

I dont remember any bad scene of this drama. It seems that all scenes is the best even the supporting actor also did their job very very well!

But of course i do have some fav scene..basically i like ep 1 to ep 3 the most...

This part is the best! Staring to each other..and the line that been said was just win my heart!

and here where they started to discover back their feelings..oh my God the looks from SJK to SHK was just real...

During the interview, SJK did said this was the best part that every cast and crew like. Apparently i like it too. He was just so manly here with the gun. 

This part..what can i say...it is short but the way SJK put his hand to SHK waist was just real..He was so protective..and I like man to be protective to his girl.

 and beautiful Dr. Kang Mo Yoen.. indeed she is the most beautiful actress in S.K

So this week is the final episode of this drama. I finally can loosen up myself after almost 2 months being a crazy mommy who sit in front of the tv and almost forgetting my task as a mother and a wife. hahahaha. Sorry dear husband....

The drama may reach to its final episode but..this two couple #songsongcouple #kikyocouple will forever have special in my heart. Hahaha.

note: all pics credit to google images.

Let go of the Mom Guilt..

Menjadi seorang ibu sememangnya perkara yang mengujakan. Tringat pengalaman pertama mengandungkan Joshua. Excited menunggu rasa bagaimana perasaanya apabila anak yg belum pernah dilihat menendang dalam rahim. Excited rasanya bila memikirkan diri sedang membawa nyawa ke dunia dan excited rasanya menunggu detik2 bersejarah bertemu dengan si kecil.

Tapi menjadi seorang ibu adalah satu perkara yang real... maksud saya real ialah.. once you become a mother there will be no turning back..and everything about anything new will happen...

Tidak mau marah...termarah juga...
Tidak mau jerit...terjerit juga...
Tidak mau merotan...terotan juga...

Kalau dulu persepsi saya mengenai ibu saya adalah dia adalah seorang SUPERWOMAN. Tapi bila saya sendiri melaluinya dengan anak 3...wow...perkataan superwoman itu sebenarnya bukan datang dari ibu sendiri tapi pandangan orang luar atau dari anaknya sendiri..the mother herself will never say she is superwoman...

Why?

I tell u why. And its real thing! Saya tidak percaya ada ibu yang tidak pernah marah anak. Tidak pernah displin anak. Tidak pernah jerit anak. Tidak taulah kalau memang ada ibu yg lembut sepanjang masa...sy akan fikir wow ..anak dia mesti senang diurus. Sebab yg namanya anak aduh...macam2 perangai yang tidak dijangka akan keluar...

Talking about kesabaran. My husband said im a lady full with patience. Maybe because compared to my husband i have higher level of patience than him. Tapi hakikatnya...tidak juga. Saya pun kadang2 and most of the time bila saya stress atau penat dengan kerja2 (balance antara being a mom, a wife and a career woman) kesabaran saya juga menipis.

Dan apabila itu terjadi...memang kesian lah anak2 saya. Kadang2 saya terfikir ibu yang sampai bunuh anak tu mungkin mengalami stress yang amat tinggi yang tidak dapat dihandle nya sudah. Barangkali? i dunno!

Tapi jujur saya juga pernah terkeluar cakap dengan anak2 saya.. 'kamu ni menyusahkan saya'. "penat saya jadi mummy kamu"..ädalah yang sy baling keluar ni"begitulah...

But did i really mean it? NO! Big NO! Dan dari situlah bila saya kembali tenang...rasa bersalah..a mom guilt tu ada... like...saya akan fikir balik....'kenapalah saya tidak bersabar lebih lagi?'... "kenapalah saya tidak kawal mulut saya?'...äduh apalah dosa anak2 saya".."tidak selamanya mereka kecil begini"...

Then bila mereka tidur dengan begitu nyenyak situlah saya rasa aman dan bahagia melihat mereka dan hanya ucapan syukur kerana Tuhan mengaruniakan anak2 yang sebegitu comel dan indah...

Jadi bila sya ingat mama saya dan keadaan saya sendiri..i would say my mom is an awesome mom. So do I. We just learn how to be better again and again. And each time when we fail..just forgive ourselves and move on.. just like what Donna Bell said about motherhood...

"MOTHERHOOD IS A CHOICE YOU MAKE EVERYDAY to put someone else's happiness and well-being ahead of your own, to teach the hard lessons, to do the right thing even when you're not sure what the right thing is..
and to forgive yourself over and over again FOR DOING EVERYTHING WRONG."

LOST

I have been dying to write it here...but i couldnt find enough time to do so..

But today... i just and i need to rant my feeling here...

You see i am very positive ethaustiastic person... i dont like negativity...

I always believe even in the darkest hour there is a hope...

But today..again...it seems that i lost myself....

i felt incompetent.. in my career...

i felt i am a lousy mother to my sons..

and of course

i felt that i am not the kind of wife that my husband looking for...

this kind of feeling started when i have one more week to prepare for my HLP interview and i havent finish my slide presentations..

suddenly i feel that i am not ready to further my studies..

why on earth i want to further my studies when i cannot write a proper research proposal!

Dang!

i dunno i just feel want to go somewhere alone and cry!

i am not the organize type kind of person or a wife or a mother...i always feel i am lacking of time...24hrs is just dont enough for me...

huhuhu..

i need hug..

i need some words of encouragement

i need some words of appreciation

i just need someone to tell me...

DONT WORRY..you can do it..
DONT WORRY you are not a lousy mother..
DONT WORRY you are special..

oklah..enough of it. I dont really like self pity... sigh!
Get up Renny...gather your strength...

In Jesus name.. i want to start it again...

last saturday was my husband birthday. We managed to celebrate together as my parents was at my place before they proceed to my sister's place at Kuantan.

It was nice to have once a while a day out only the two of us.. without wet tissue to think of...diapers to bring..or stroller..just like the good old days...hehehe

anyway...this weekend i was so occupied..that i hardly had time to sit and chat with my families. When i have time,, it must be laundry time or masak time .. when i have time means when my baby sleep thats where i only have time!

And time flies really fast. Suddenly my house is back to empty. No more my parents and no more my siblings. And here i am missing them so badly!

Yesterday as i was ready to pick up my sister at the aiport..i had this little conversation with my parents and my 2nd last younger brother. They were planning to rearrange all the things at my hometown..and they were saying to put double decker at my supposed-to-be-my-room-at-kampung since my niece had using my room as their place.

When I heard this, i get pissed off with my parents. Why of all many rooms at my house at kg they choosed my room. I was like hello how am i going to balik kg with 3 kids and husband who quite fussy about keselesaan? Then I heard myself saying this to my parents..

'macam ni memang tidak balik kg lah saya. saya hanya akan balik kg bila saya ada bilik semula'. actually i meant what i just said for that moment because i was so angry.

But as i calm again..and here i am missing my family so much..i was like...'takkan sebab bilik saja mau merajuk' and the thought crossed my mind 'what if, if suddenly i never have the chance to see my parents again?'

My parents is no longer young. I dont know how much years that i will be with them. How silly i am to have that kind of thoughts.

sigh.

I must be nuts!

I love you mom and dad. Pls be healthy ya...

God bless.

Random,

Me.

I'm Back guys....

It's been a long time..without me in this world of blogging.. hikkss macam bunyi lagu yang biasa didengar kan...

anyway...how are u uolls?

My last post was on my birthday that was on the 9th of Mac..pheww quite some time neglecting this space..

Where have I been? I guess some of you might ask this question. While some of you had known the answer!

Well first and foremost.. Praise the Lord I just gave birth to a wonderful and amazing baby boy on the 24th of April. His name is Jathniel Ethan. I will show you his picture in the next post (actually i forgot to bring hp today..and all his pictures is in it) or u can follow me on the Instagram.

Oklah....that's all for now. Will story mory more on the arrival of my 3rd baby in the next post. Till then, stay tune and pls be patience while my mood of writing is back here with me.

God Bless

close lah? what say u

Hi hello

its been very very long time since the last post.

Life been so hectic..plus i have no inspiration to write anymore...

i am thinking to close down this blog..but this blog had been my companion since 2009..and so much memories had been written here...

perhaps u guys have suggestions on what topic to write here...

huhu i need inspiration...

inspirations guys...

and

aslo motivation...

(-_-)

Im sooo gonna start baking...

ehm....

nope...

it's just a title..hahahahaha

Hello bloggers....

Tajuk entry sya adalah diinspire kan oleh blog Vien... sebab dia bilang mau start baking and gardening once ada rumah sendiri...

semalam my husband tunjuk WA picture adikberadik dia... his adik bungsu yang baru lepasan U sedang cari kerja so sementara duduk d rumah saja, adik dia belajar membaking..so 1st hasil tangan dia Cheese Cake.. komen? my husband said according to his mum, sedap! So congrats to his little sister sebab berjaya. Sedikit history, my husband family ada 5 orang adik beradik. 3 perempuan 2 lelaki. dari 3 orang adik beradik perempuan dia..cuma yg adik perempuan dia yang kedua pandai masak seperti my MIL. adik perempuan dia yg sulung kurang sikit. Spt kata husband sy dia tu agak 'pemalas' mencuba macam saya.

huahahaua...dia samakan dengan saya pula ('_'!)

well...entahlah rasa mau menceburkan diri utk baking itu dan ini macam belum ada lagi lah... dalam family sy adik perempuan sy yang suka baking. Baru2 ni, dia pg baking cheese cake and blueberry cake. Macam tiada guna oven langsung. Masuk dalam fridge and tunggu beku. Hasilnya memang SADAP! Dia suka buat cookies macam2 lah...walaupun oven adik sy alahai kecil jak..tapi dia minat.

Saya? memasak boleh lagilah mau try resepi baru...mau buat cookies...ehmmm tidak taulah kalau tiba2 joshua besar dia minta itu ini...mungkinlah sy cuba usahakan? mungkin...

Jadi bila bien cakap dia mau start baking sy tau dia akan buat sebab dia mmg suka makan manis2...kan ging..hihiih...

tapi kalau gardening yes... thats my dream too... one day if i have my own house and yard.

So buat masa ni, baking baking still not in my list to do.

(This post is random..)

kutuk mengutuk? is it budaya?

hi hello

So we finally reached the end of September...fuhhh..tak sangka kan...

harap2 semua masih tetap semangat dalam menghadapi hari2 mendatang...

Actually sepanjang sy berbloggers, salah satu kesukaan sy adalah bloghopping... suka baca blog2 kesukaan selain dari list sedia ada sy... most of the time biasanya saya cuma silent reader saja...never have the intention to leave comment unless something important or I think i shud comment then only i leave my comment...

so sampai lah suatu hari, saya terbaca suatu entry dari famous blogger...entah macam mana dia luahkan perasaan dia terhadap seorang blogger lain yg happened to be juga seorang yg famous dengan business dia. Well, dari gaya tulisan blogger tu kita dapat hint lah siapa yang dia maksudkan... so tak apalah baca ja lah kan...

CUMANYA yang membuatkan saya rasa terpanggil mau comment apabila some of her followers/fan bagi komen yang pada saya sangat menakutkan... u know macam kutuk kaw kaw punya lah... macam yang kawan makan kawan...tikam belakang...depan puji belakang kutuk habis-habisan macam tu punya style comment mereka..kenapa sy cakap macam tu, sebab followers/fans si blogger ni tau siapa yang dimaksudkan...

SAYA JADI TAKUT ooo begitu... ini terang2 an depan puji belakang kutuk...mengumpat habis...

Kau bayangkan, kawan yang selama ni kau fikir BFF kau, sekali kau dapat tahu dia lah paling banyak mengutuk pasal kau di belakang... depan kau bukan main hormat puja segala..sekali....

Ini kalau buat bisnes, memang bahaya...kau tidak tahu tiba2 the next thing u know, you are no longer tuan punya company sb habis dikerjakan dengan so called BFF.

Sudah2 lah kita menghakimi orang lain, siapa kita untuk jadi hakim buat orang lain? hanya Tuhan saja yang sempurna penghakimannya. Kalau pun ada orang brbuat jahat ke atas kita, jangan lah membalasnya. Sebab pembalasan di tangan Tuhan, we might as well just pray and ask God to give us strength. Forgive the person and move on.. Our God is the ultimate jugdes.

SO janganlah jadikan kutuk mengutuk ni budaya kita... remember Tuhan melihat setiap hati kita...

till then... God bless

Practice Makes Perfect

Hello there...

Kepada sahabat-sahabat saya yang beragama Islam, selamat Hari Raya.. jangan lupa panggil saya untuk open house ye..hehehehe

Ok, selalu dengar orang cakap kan ... ei saya tidak tau buat ni lah.. macam mana mau buat ni.. etc etc
kemudiannya mesti ada orang reply aka bagi nasihat gitu... contohnya, buat saja..practice makes perfect.. mula2 saja susah lepas tu mesti ok sudah... begitu lah lebih kurang kan...

pernah ka melalui situasi seperti itu? mungkin dalam certain things kali?

macam saya kan, baru-baru ini as i mentioned in my previous entry, saya seorang yang memang tidak pandai masak. Tidak berani memasak pun ada. Rasa macam takut betul memasak. Paling menjadi ketakutan saya ialah bermain dengan garam dan aji. Paling saya tidak tau, cukup rasa ka belum, mau berapa sudu garam baru ngam. Mau kena try berkali-kali sampai kalau tidak puas hati panggil mama suh try. Nah ambik kau...begitulah saya...

Oleh kerana sejak remaja saya jarang2 dapat memasak, bayangkanlah sejak form 1 - form 5 saya duduk asrama, lepas tu sambung duduk matrik sambung U. memang boleh bilang dengan jari lah bab masak ni. Sampailah saya kerja dan duduk serumah dengan kawan2 satu church, baru situ kembali memasak. Tahun 2009-2011. Berjinak-jinak lah saya memasak. Sama ada sedap atau tidak, tau lah kawan kan never mention sedap ka pedas ka cukup rasa ka...telan saja. Mungkin sebab mereka mau tunjuk appreciation kali sebab sudah ambil effort masak. Pada hal masa tu semua orang mmg busy masak. Siapa yang rajin pg lah dapur.

Until bila saya kawin, dan my husband jenis yang mau wife masak. Mula2 masak, husband did comment lah, sb baru mau beradaptasi hidup sama kan. Saya suka masak tumis no kari no santan bagai dan wajib sup. My husband pula tekak ala Melayu sikit so sentiasa ada pertengkaran when it comes to food. Last2 oleh sebab saya mula terusik jiwa (hihihi) dan pada tahun 2011 tu saya pregnant dn mengalami alahan yang cukup teruk so cuti panjang juga lah saya dari memasak.

Memasuki tahun kedua pernikahan, bila ada anak, lepas tu berazam mau masak utk anak dan husband sy pun memberanikan diri melangkah ke dunia memasak. Pada awalnya, dengan masakan yang tidak konsisten, husband pun merungut. Masa tu rasa down sebab, all I need that time was his support and a little appreciation maybe.

So sekali lagi masak memasak terbengkalai niatnya. Sampailah suatu ketika, husband mengeluh dia mulai ada alergic makan itu tak kena badan naik gatal. Makan ni tak kena...ditambah rasanya ada part kewangan yang perlu dijimatkan jadi dalam diam sekali lagi sy buat keputusan mau tidak mau sy kena masak!

I pray to God, please give me wisdom in cooking skill. But somehow, bukanlah macam magic yang Tuhan terus tadaaa nah hari ni terus pandai masak tidak. Tapi I believe God give me strength and wisdom through practising a lot with cooking. hahahaha

Gila...memang seriously. Saya bulatkan hati dan fikirkan ala masak sajalah.

Then, after a while, 1 week goes to 2nd week of trying masak, masak apapun lah...Puji Tuhan saya mulai lebih yakin dengan letak garam dan apa jua rasa...mulai dapat logic kalau setakat ni sejauh mana tahap kemasinan makanan yg sy masak. Dari situ, husband pun start puji. Pujian pertama ayam masak paprik sy.

Kalau dulunya, husband sa x suka sup, now dia sangat suka ada sup. Tak kisahlah sup ayam ka sup ikan ka janji ada sup. Atau maybe Tuhan juga buka hati suami saya...hahahah barang kali?

So betul lah practice makes perfect. Once dah mulai..rasa mau terus saja kan...begitulah sy unless sy betul2 penat dan lewat sampai rumah mmg makan luar lah. Tapi selagi terdaya, sy masak.

So friends remember practice do makes perfect ya....

By the way, this might be my last entry for this month. I know I suppose to write at least 10 entry per month, but due to something, I decide to stop blogging for a while untuk beri laluan kepada sesuatu itu. I will tell you later ya.


See you.... take care. God Bless

Welcome July

6 bulan telah berlalu...

Yes...I'm ready for the next 6 months...

Bring it on...

The Lord's Prayer from God's Point of View

Person: "Our Father which art in heaven..."

God: Yes,?

Person: Don't interrupt me. I'm praying.

God: But you called me!

Person: Called you? I didn't call you. I'm praying. "Our Father which art in heaven..."

God: There, you did it again.

Person: Did what?

God: Called me. You said, "Our Father which art in heaven. "Here I am...what's on your mind?

Person: But I didn't mean anything by it. I was,you know, just saying my prayers for the day. I always say the Lord's Prayer .It makes me feel good, kind of like getting a duty done.

God: All right. Go on.

Person: Hallowed be thy name..."

God: Hold it. What do you mean by that?

Person: By what?

God: By "hallowed be thy name"?

Person:It means...it means...good grief,I don't know what it means. How should I know? It's just a part of the prayer. By the way, what does it mean?

God: It means honored, holy, wonderful.

Person:Hey,that makes sense .I never thought about what "hallowed" meant before. "Thy kingdom come,thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven."

God: Do you really mean that?

Person: Sure, why not?

God: What are you doing about it?

Person:Doing?
Nothing,I guess. I just think it would be kind of neat if you got control of everything down here like you have up there.

God: Have I got control of you?

Person: Well, I go to church.,,

God: That isn't what I asked you. What about your bad temper? You've really got a problem there, you know. And then there's the way you spend your money--all on yourself. And what about the kind of books you read?

Person:Stop picking on me! I'm just as good as some of the rest of those people at the church.

God:Excuse me. It thought you were praying for my will to be done. If that is to happen,it will have to start with the ones who are praying for it. Like you,for example.

Person:Oh,all right. I guess I do have some hang-ups. Now that you mention it, I could probably name some others.

God: So could I.

Person:I haven't thought about it very much until now, but I really would like to cut out some of those things. I would like to, you know, be really free.

God:Good. Now we're getting somewhere. We'll work together, you and I. Some victories can truly be won. I'm proud of you.

Person:Look,Lord,I need to finish up here. This is taking a lot longer than it usually does. "Give us this day,our daily bread."

God:You need to cut out the bread. You're overweight as it is.

Person:Hey,wait a minute? What is this,"Criticize me day'? Here I was doing my religious duty,and all of a sudden you break in and remind me of all my hang-ups.

God: Praying is a dangerous thing. You could wind up changed, you know. That's what I'm trying to get across to you.
You called me, and here I am . It's too late to stop now. Keep praying,I'm interested in the next part of your prayer..
.(Pause).
Well, go on.

Person: I'm scared to.

God: Scared? Of what?

Person: I know what you'll say.

God: Try me and see.

Person:"Forgive us our sins,as we forgive those who sin against us."

God: What about Ann?

Person:See?I knew it! I knew you would bring her up!  Why Lord, she's told lies about me,spread stories about my family. She never paid back the debt she owes me. I've sworn to get even with her!

God: But, your prayer? What about your prayer?

Person: I didn't mean it.

God:Well,at least you're honest. But it's not much fun carrying that load of bitterness around inside,is it?

Person:No.But I'll feel better as soon as I get even. Boy,have I got some plans for that neighbor. She'll wish she had never moved into this neighborhood.

God:You won't feel any better. You'll feel worse. Revenge isn't sweet. Think of how unhappy you already are. .But I can change all that.

Person: You can? How?

God:Forgive Ann. Then I'll forgive you. Then the hate and sin will be Ann's problem and not yours. You will have settled your heart.

Person: Oh, you're right,You always are. And more than I want to revenge Ann,I want to be right with you. Ann, I want to be right with you...(pause)...(sigh). All right. All right. I forgive her. Help her to find the right road in life, Lord. She's bound to be awfully miserable now that I think about it. Anybody who goes around doing the things she does to others has to be out of it. Someway, somehow, show her the right way.

God: There now! Wonderful! How do you feel?

Person: Hmmmmmmm. Well,not bad.Not bad at all. In fact,I feel pretty great!  You know,I don't think I'll have to go to bed uptight tonight for the first time since I can remember. Maybe I won't be so tired from now on because I'm not getting enough rest.

God: You're not through with your prayer. Go on...

Person:Oh,all right.
"And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil."

God: Good! Good! I'll do that. Just don't put yourself in a place where you can be tempted.

Person: What do you mean by that?

God:Don't turn on the TV when you know the laundry needs to be done and the house needs to be picked up. Also, about the time you spend coffeeing with your friends, if you can't influence the conversation to positive things, perhaps you should rethink the value of those friend-ships. Another thing, your neighbors and friends shouldn't be your standard for "keeping up". And please don't use me for an escape hatch.

Person: I don't understand the last part.

God: Sure you do. you've done it a lot of times. You get caught in a bad situation.You get into trouble and then you come running to me,"Lord, help me out of this mess, and I promise you I'll never do it again."You remember some of those bargains you tried to make with me?

Person: Yes and I'm ashamed, Lord. I really am.

God: Which bargain are you remembering?

Person: Well, there was the night that Bill was gone and the children and I were home alone. The wind was blowing so hard I thought the roof would go any minute and tornado warnings were out. I remember praying, "Oh God, if you spare us, I'll never skip my devotions again."

God: I protected you, but you didn't keep your promise, did you?

Person: I'm sorry, Lord, I really am. Up until now I thought that if I just prayed the Lord's Prayer every day,then I could do what I liked. I didn't expect any-thing to happen like it did.

God: Go ahead and finish your prayer.

Person:"For Thine is the kingdom,and the power,and the glory forever." Amen.

God:Do you know what would bring me glory? What would really make me happy?

Person:No,but I'd like to know. I want now to please you. I can see what a mess I've made of my life.And I can see how great it would be to really be one of your followers.

God: You just answered the question.

Person: I did?

God: Yes. The thing that would bring me glory is to have people like you truly love me. And I see that happening between us.  Now that some of these old sins are exposed and out of the way,well,there is no telling what we can do together.

Lady Boss

Semua orang tahu, bekerja di bawah majikan perempuan ni memang ada pro n consnya...

apa lagi zaman sekarang wanita semakin ramai di bumi ini...

Saya pun wanita juga...sy pun bos di kalangan staff saya juga...tapi tetap sy tidak faham kenapa my LADY BOSS yang ini sangat membuatkan saya tidak menyenangi dia...

Buat kerja HR patutnya tiadalah tahap peruntukan berjuta2 ringgit...tiadalah ada 10 projek mahu dipantau...

Buat HR..duduk ofis..tekan keyboard...jak....sampai masa kena pergi kursus...looks easy and peasy kan???

Tapi realitinya TIDAK ooo...

Saya buat HR di sini...Tuhan saja tau isi hati sy bila ur KEESSSU bagi amaran mahu kenakan tatatertib..atas kesalahan apa...she is the bos, she can create many kesalahan and put the blame to her staff (dia peduli apa kan)...she can kicked everyone she want...because she is the boss...

Latest, she just kicked my superior boss...though the boss, memang for me adalah juga sikit masalah dengan kami, tapi to kick her like that very not professional and very the woman one! Last time, my immediate bos also kena macam tu....when 24hrs kena tukar...pun order from lady boss...wei...i am also a lady...why?why???

Di sini, bila ada masalah, HR juga disalahkan..kata HR tidak bagi panduan...HR lambat....HR itu ini....HR suka transfer orang sesuka suki...bila HR 54 buat decision tidak direspect langsung...

Nasihat saya, kepada yang membaca blog saya ini...kalau kamu yg belum buat HR...jangan memandai2 besar kepada sana....saya akui ada HR yang memang ada kesilapan...sy akui itu sebab sy pernah lalui...tapi no harm to say sorry....then kita buat correction..kalau silap gaji kita betulkan bukan terus blame...tapi bila dapat kenaikan gaji tidak ada seorang pun datang HR say TQ....

Kalau kita lewat..harus diingat ada prosedur...plus..we are kementerian..ada a lot of issues everyday datang d meja kami....for ur info, unit gaji di seksyen saya...paling awal balik jam 7...kalau perlu segera datang hujung minggu..just to make sure..u guys...benda lain mungkin boleh hold boleh KIV tapi gaji jangan...kita make sure kau dapat gaji..supaya anak bini kau tidak kelaparan...supaya bil ko tidak tertangguk...kita make sure call sana sini utk dapatkan dokumen...

tapi itu tidak pernah dilihat oleh mereka2....what a humanity!

Sekian.

Tuesday bla bla bla

Zaman sy masih single....sy pandai hujung minggu jak merantau pg rumah vien di Putrajaya di Presint 11 masa tu. Biasalah masa single ni..rajin lah mau kasi kurus2 badan....rajinlah untuk kesihatan....jadi rajin juga bangun pagi just mau jogging... (sekarang bangun pagi sebab ada tanggungjawab..hehehe)

Gambar saya di atas tu di ambil masa tahun 2010.

So bila suda kawin ni...betul2 saya rasa masa yang ada kalau boleh mahu tidur..kalau boleh...mau baca buku...but mostly saya just mau rest...tapi most of the time, kalau anak sy tidur...biasanya...masa tu lah saya berkemas...itu ini..siapkan itu ini....sb bila anak bangun...mau kena perhatikan dia ....teman dia main...

So bila ada masa church buat sukan main badminton mcm tu...happy lah sebab boleh kasi regang2 badan...tapi masalah juga kadang2 sebab husband pun main, sy pun mau main...tiada orang mau jaga anak..so we have to take turn....kadang2 sy cuma dapat main 1 round saja game..but it is fine to me as long as ada juga lah pergerakan...

Sekarang ni saya ada rasa sakit belakang...sakit pinggang kekadang...mungkin sebab banyak duduk buat kerja...lepas tu sy masih menyusukan anak sebelah kiri saja lagi tu...memang cabaran juga....

ehm....semakin random post saya ni...motip: hanya sekadar mau upload gambar ini saja....hahahaha

(i will sharing something very very serious...but soon...stay tuned)

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Bulan februari sudah mahu menutup tirainya hari ni..and for that i think my blog deserved a new post to end this month. Hehehe (hakikatnya sy x mahu nampak blog ni macam blog yg tinggal nama saja, sy still sayang blog ni)

Btw, these past 3 days sy ada kursus d intan kiara starting hari selasa until today. Well its good to have kursus early of the year so senanglah kerja sy mau fullfill tu 7 days brkursus.

Baru2 ni myfriend ila suda selamat melahirkan anak keduanya..its a boy...another boy in the house yeay! I know ila mau baby girl..but dunwori ila usaha lagi..hehehe

Anyway my little boy joshua sudah mulai brjalan..walaupun masih belum lancar..tapi i am happy to see him learning to walk..so cute....cumanya joshua ni manjabetul dgn sy. X nampak mummynya saja trus menangis. Padahal sy pg toilet jak pun..kadang2 penat juga...


But i guess itulah cabaran yg sy perlu lalui...no wonder pengorbanan seorang ibu itu sangat besar....

Oklah..till then....God bless

P/s happy belated birthday kiera...happy happy 30th birthday....

#myjustsaying

hoopppp...hoooppp..

apa kabar...hiihih

Saya lama tidak 'menyibukkan' diri dengan gosip-gosip yang sedang panasszz sekarang ni...

Antaranya....

Sharnaaz vs Shila Amzah

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                                                                Kredit : google images

Kenal? tidak kenal?

tidak apa, sudah namanya 'menyibukkan diri'..so kalau tidak kenal buat2 kenal saja yooo...

so ceritera mereka ni kalo mengikut gossip d mr Beautiful nara...bermula bila c ayah mulai tidak senang dengan c 'bakal menantu' yang pandai2 gelarkan anaknya sebagai 'bakal isteri' dia...walhal..menurut c ayah, c 'bakal menantu' ni tidak ikut adab melayu...yg masih pentingkan budaya..bla bla..tau lah kamuorang tu kan...mcm mana...jangan kan orang melayu..orang rungus pun ada adat dia juga bab risik merisik tunang menunang ni.... 

jadi c 'bakal menantu' ni x boleh terima teguran c 'bakal mentua' ni...so terjadilah pergeseran....bila suda masuk news....biasalah media ni..kadang2 media ni boleh juga jadi penyebab kepada kehancuran..kan kan..terutamanya media tutttt......pantang betul dengar couple/tunang/suami/isteri...cerai berai....gaduh...ada saja berita yg jadi muka depan....maka demikian...c anak pula x senang hati melihat pergeseran itu...jadi dia tulislah emel sama media thru blog....utk penjelasan (actually) or curahan hati kali...

manalah tau tindakan c anak telah membuatkan hubungan dia dengan c bakal menantu jadi masalah....

nah #myjustsaying sini..begini..

kalau saya jadi parents...of course sama mahu bakal menantu sy menghormati saya sebagai bapa dan ibu kepada anak yg dibesarkan dengan penuh pengorbanan..of course semua parents mau kan anak2 dapat yg terbaik...dari sekecil2 zarah sampailah bab pasangan hidup...walaupun sy pasti beri kebebasan memilih kepada anak sy, tapi sy percaya...restu parents tu sangat penting....not just because they already makan garam lebih banyak dari saya...tapi mana ada ibu bapa yg x mau terbaik utk anak2 dia kan??? for example, sy kawin dengan husband sy..selain sy secara pribadi ask God for it thru my personal prayer...convincing dari my parents...dari spiritual parents pun sy minta....when green light semuanya dan dada berasa lapang...yes i make the decision...

dan kepada bakal menantu....wlpn anak tu sudah besar panjang...sudah lepas 21 tahun sudah pegang kunci kebebasan...tapi selagi belum kawin selagi itulah masih jatuh tanggungjawab kepada ibu bapa....plus when sebut ibu bapa maksudnya jauh lebih tua dari kita....kalu pun mereka x betul...we dont simply blame them publicly kan...we still respect them..they way u behave just show how u behave with ur own parents...SCARY!

and to si anak....bersabar..if it means to be ur destined with him..surely God will open the way....but if it not....then carilah seribu jalan...pasti susah......lagipula cuba fikir begini...kalau sebelum kawin pun pasangan kita susah mau respect bapa kita...do u expect lepas kawin he will 'suddenly' respect ur father??? nahhhh i don't think so! unless dia bertaubat lah!

so apapun #myjustsaying ni...yg panjang lebar ni...ini tidak dibayar oleh mana2 pihak...jauh sekali menjatuhkan orang lain...tapi pada sy ini pengajaran kepada kita semua....cinta tidak semestinya bersatu...cinta juga tidak semestinya memiliki....tapi cinta atau kasih yang sejati...adalah kasih yang didasari pada kesabaran....kemurahan...kebaikan... kesetiaan....kelemahlembutan... dan penguasaan diri. 

So i guess itu saja dari #myjustsaying utk kali ini....

chow...

Just Random

Lately, I really lazy to update my blog. Maybe because, i dont know what to share with u guys...

:)

Mau share pasal kerja, takut ada yang rasa nightmare kerja dengan gomen....so sy kena reserve banyaklah kan pasal kerja...kalau boleh seboleh yang mungkin saya mau share yg baik2 saja...hahaha sy usahakan ya

mau share pasal anak...banyak gambar di IG sudah pula....

mau share pasal what happening to my life...like food...travel...macam tiada story...

so takut berhabuk saja ni blog...

btw, it's the first monday of February...welcome February...the month of love.. :)

Till then happy working peeps...

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wow...

cantik tarikh hari ini...

hari ini ada seorang member church kawin...congrats to him..jauh benar pasangan tulang rusuk dia nun jauh di manado..hihii...

btw, sebut pasal tarikh cantik ni...saya teringat my wedding day...

tarikh wedding kami cantik sudah..senang mau ingat...12.3.11...

so besarlah harapan tarikh cantik suasana pun cukup santik lah kan....

hehehe mana tau..11.3.11 terjadi tsunami besar d Jepun..Kudat kena tempias juga...

so tarikh kawin kami cantik tapi hujan rahmat melanda perkawinan kami...so antara kesannya...ramailah saudara mara sy yang datang dr KK terkandas di Ulu Kukut...flight member kami dari KL tunda 1 jam...lepas tu stuck bersama di Ulu kukut...

wedding yang sepatutnya dijadualkan jam 2...berlangsung jam 3...

kawan yg mau meraikan sy hanya dapat datang jam 10 ke atas...

memang hari memorial betul utk saya..hihii...

Well bukan sy buka balik cerita ni saya rasa menyesal...

BIG no....siapalah saya untuk menentukan kejadian alam...Tuhan jauh lebih tau....

Apapun saya bersyukur despite the fenomena..sy dan husband tetap dapat bersatu...I dunno what others think about our marriage days...but I know I just have to be grateful for everything happened!

Anyway..the point is...sya belajar tarikh cantik ka tarikh kurang cantik ka tidak glamour ka...setiap hari itu adalah kurniaan Tuhan..anugerah dari Tuhan yang telah memberikan kita another day utk hidup di dunia ciptaan Tuhan.

Kerana bak kata salomo dalam Pengkhotbah..setiap hari ada peristiwanya sendiri yang Tuhan sendiri telah tentukan...

yang penting we embrace each new day with love and gratefulness...

Stay blessed, and keep faith.

Jesus loves u.

New User in the house!

(google pictures)

Hi Apple...

I'm your new user here....

Do u have tutorial for a new ipad user like me? well u see..i am not really into gadget things...also i am bit slow in IT stuff...so do u have a very easy peasy tips...on how to use ur product? 

LOL...

Yeap... saya masih blur2 guna ni Apple application. IOS...what soever lah they called it... 

Beli sebab sebenarnya kununnya mau lebih aktif berblogging...lebih aktif letak gambar...ehm..apa lagi ya...hahaha..mungkin kegunaan di masa depan..bagi Joshua celik IT ka...hahaha very lame excuse....

oklah...sambung kerja!

#justsaying

Kalau yang mengenali saya...mesti tahu sikap saya towards relationship between man-woman!

Saya memang sangat mementingkan komitmen pd hubungan...sebab itu kawin dengan husband sy ni..hahaha..just a little recap...husband dgn sy kenal awal 2007..mulai bersahabat baik...yang pada dasarnya tiada kata 'declare' pun just tau-tau rasa-rasa ada chemistry among us... until 2008... sy percaya ini campur tangan Tuhan utk proses pengujian hubungan sekaligus memastikan sy dan husband tidak terus main tau-tau tanpa ada sesuatu yg pasti...apa jadi...putus di tengah jalan...of course rasa frust tu ada..but then I thanked God sebab sy mulai belajar di situ....

2008 - 2009... tahun di mana sy sangat sibuk dengan pelayanan dan kerja sy..masa sy bekerja dan bekerja di ladangnya Tuhan....soal jodoh sy berikan sepenuhnya kepada Tuhan..

2010...husband suddenly datang balik....kami kawan spt biasa....memang masih rasa ada chemistry antara kami..tapi kali ni..sy belajar dr kesilapan...sy libatkan Pastor..sy libatkan orang2 yang sy percaya...sy libatkan family...sy berdoa....

middle of 2010...sekali lagi diuji....masa tu sy sekali lagi beserah kepada Tuhan...dalam masa yg sama ada seseorang lain yg muncul dalam hidup saya... 

Julai...spiritually breakdown..God is good....

Then Filipi 1:6~ "Akan hal ini aku yakin sepenuhnya, yaitu Ia yang memulai pekerjaan yang baik diantara kamu, akan meneruskannya sampai pada akhirnya pada hari Kristus Yesus"

Dipendekkan story...orang lain yang muncul itu sy anggap blessing sebab di situ..saya dan husband diuji..dan sy percaya saat sy lepaskan orang lain itu...I know..its the best choice for each of us..

Disember 2010 - Tunang dgn husband

Mac 2011 - officially Mr & Mrs. MM....

(sy bilang recap jadi panjang pula kan...hgehehe sori for that)

kenapa sy share serba ringkas ni, sebab sy mau tegur sstu yang sy nampak antara pasangan anak-anak Tuhan yg sy kenal ni...

bila ada masalah..lari bukannya communicate...bila ada masalah...cari orang lain to soothe his/her problem...bila ada masalah...talk or spread to the media network such as FB!

Saya sebenarnya pantang (especially orang yg sy kenal rapat /couple yg sy tau) dengar macam tu...especially yang suka cari orang lain...

ni baru couple...abis kalau sudah kawin...mcm manalah? kepada siapa kamu bawa masalah kamu? terutamanya yg suka share dgn lawan jenis...so so dangerous! Ini lah yg akhirnya akan membawa kepada curang lah...itulah inilah...pasangan gelap lah.... sigh...

saya belajar...even bila sy dgn husband ada rough time between us...i remind myself never ever shared it to ur males friend...even to my family.. I HARDLY shared to them...tp yes I do have curhat (curahan hati) session with my very very close friends. But then sampai takat situ saja...sebab close friend sy pun sudah kawin..so at least dia faham...

but my real point is that...kalau ada masalah dgn pasangan terutamanya yg baru couple..kalau kamu ada komitmen antara kamu pls talk with ur partner...discuss..solve it...bukan cari orang lain pasangan lain utk gembirakan hati kamu...sebab itu sama dengan kasanova!Apa bezanya kan??

Jadi nasihat sy sama yg baru bercouple...1stly...jangan couple kalau kamu anggap pasangan kamu tu hanya suka2..leisure time saja...

only when u serious with her/him then..make sure commitment kamu tu ada....sy tau ada hubungan sudah jumpa parents tapi x jadi...ada...basically itu pasti ada sebab...could be God intervention...or maybe...proses pemurnian yang panjang...who knows??? sebab itu bible bilang kasih itu SABAR....

so fikir2 kanlah ye...

what other people say about marriage...part two

Ok...post sy sebelum ini melihat kepada pandangan orang lain mengenai marriage...

Saya tidak mau ulas banyak tapi sy fikir sy mau refreshkan diri saya tentang ayat Firman Tuhan ini...


1 Corinthians 13:4-8 (CEV)

Love is kind and patient,
never jealous, boastful,
    proud, or rude.
Love isn’t selfish
    or quick tempered.
It doesn’t keep a record
    of wrongs that others do.
⁶ Love rejoices in the truth,
    but not in evil.
⁷ Love is always supportive,
loyal, hopeful,
    and trusting.
⁸ Love never fails!

Yes..indeed...love never fails...

Have a blessed Tuesday...