LOST

I have been dying to write it here...but i couldnt find enough time to do so..

But today... i just and i need to rant my feeling here...

You see i am very positive ethaustiastic person... i dont like negativity...

I always believe even in the darkest hour there is a hope...

But today..again...it seems that i lost myself....

i felt incompetent.. in my career...

i felt i am a lousy mother to my sons..

and of course

i felt that i am not the kind of wife that my husband looking for...

this kind of feeling started when i have one more week to prepare for my HLP interview and i havent finish my slide presentations..

suddenly i feel that i am not ready to further my studies..

why on earth i want to further my studies when i cannot write a proper research proposal!

Dang!

i dunno i just feel want to go somewhere alone and cry!

i am not the organize type kind of person or a wife or a mother...i always feel i am lacking of time...24hrs is just dont enough for me...

huhuhu..

i need hug..

i need some words of encouragement

i need some words of appreciation

i just need someone to tell me...

DONT WORRY..you can do it..
DONT WORRY you are not a lousy mother..
DONT WORRY you are special..

oklah..enough of it. I dont really like self pity... sigh!
Get up Renny...gather your strength...

In Jesus name.. i want to start it again...