I have been dying to write it here...but i couldnt find enough time to do so..
But today... i just and i need to rant my feeling here...
You see i am very positive ethaustiastic person... i dont like negativity...
I always believe even in the darkest hour there is a hope...
But today..again...it seems that i lost myself....
i felt incompetent.. in my career...
i felt i am a lousy mother to my sons..
and of course
i felt that i am not the kind of wife that my husband looking for...
this kind of feeling started when i have one more week to prepare for my HLP interview and i havent finish my slide presentations..
suddenly i feel that i am not ready to further my studies..
why on earth i want to further my studies when i cannot write a proper research proposal!
Dang!
i dunno i just feel want to go somewhere alone and cry!
i am not the organize type kind of person or a wife or a mother...i always feel i am lacking of time...24hrs is just dont enough for me...
huhuhu..
i need hug..
i need some words of encouragement
i need some words of appreciation
i just need someone to tell me...
DONT WORRY..you can do it..
DONT WORRY you are not a lousy mother..
DONT WORRY you are special..
oklah..enough of it. I dont really like self pity... sigh!
Get up Renny...gather your strength...
In Jesus name.. i want to start it again...
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Duduk di Kementerian ini memang banyak hal yang tidak terjangka...one minute you still hold the position the next day u got transfer order..... -
i は悪いと悲惨なを感じる。 私は私の間違いである知っていた。 申し訳ありません主低下するの私です。 私は私の に横たわってされてしました。 主よ、許す私。 腹を私と私の を行う i たびに悲しいなかで感じる。 ちょうど願っていないは彼女はことを教え、偉大な従業員となりすぐ雇...
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I love cooking... :D Bukan sebab sy ni perempuan dan harus pandai masak, atau sebab mau kawin so kena belajar masak, tapi sy suka memasak si...
3 comments:
hang on in thee cuzzie, you can do this... and this too, shall pass!
it's ok to rant once in a while.
To get the negativity out of your system, hoping that a new and more positive renny comes out from that ranting process.
people are weak. And it's only normal to feel helpless once in a while.
Just that, you need a strong support.
Don't keep it all inside you.
Get a friend to talk with you, share and maybe they will give you advice.
Anything, you can count on your friends.
Walaupun jauh n mungkin tidak dapat physically be there for you, but at least friends will listen to you.
be strong!
jangan fikir banyak sangat.
Take one thing at a time.
Don't rush.
Especially part belajar tu.
Don't be pressured by your peers.
Itu boleh fikir kemudian.
Maybe after your babies at least besar sikit.
Kalau masih baby, memang susah mau belajar balik ging.
You need to fikir and set your priority.
THere will be a LOT of sacrifices kalau kau belajar time ni.
You will need to be strong mentally and physically.
But at least kalau HLP, you wont have to think about work.
You can concentrate on your study and dapat luangkan masa jaga anak juga.
So, clear your mind, think about your priority
we will cheer you from behind!
:)
i just saw this comment..
thank you bien and jac...
sob sob sob...
thank you thank you..
i am blessed to have friends like you..God bless both of u
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