Jerebu kembali mneyerang area-area di sekitar Putrajaya, Kuala Lumpur dan Selangor.

hari ini pergi ofis jalan raya agak sunyi. Mungkin sebab Menteri KPM baru saja umumkan cuti sekolah utk semua sekolah area2 yg saya maksudkan tadi.

Plus besok public holiday utk hari Malaysia jadi saya beranggapan ramai yg ambil cuti kecemasan saja hari ini.

tapi beza dengan saya..saya ada di ofis ni sekarang. Sakit kepala dan sakit leher masih saya rasai dari semalam.

Pagi ni saya google (ya sy google dulu kumpul info sebelum melakukan tindakan seterusnya) punca sakit saya. Dan salah satunya..salah tidur..dan akan tambah sakit apabila stress sebab urat2 d leher akan kembung terus menyambung kepada otak.

Sigh.

Ya. Stress.

One thing about having  a babysitter who stay with u...i can leave home for office dengan tenang. Anak2 pun akan lebih trjaga. But then..utk saya pujuk babysitter ni supaya kerja dengan saya...selain dr offer gaji yg quite mahal..saya juga cuma suruh dia jaga anak2 saja. Urus rumah masak dia x perlu buat. Jadi bila saya balik dengan rumah yg berserabut dan saya perlu lagi masak lepas tu dengan sudah sehari suntuk di ofis dengan pelbagai ekspektasi orang atasan memang cukup menghectikan dan mengharu birukan kehidupan ku.

Dan saya masih struggle mau menyusukan anak sy sepenuhnya dengan supply susu yang semakin merudum. Memang cukup stress.

Dalam saya stress..saya tidak boleh mcm setengah perempuan lain..they have their husband to pour out their feeling. My husband is already full with so many things that make him stress I just dont want to add on with my story. so most of them...i just kept to myself and cheer myself to be strong.

But i am just a normal human being and normal mom. I do have my bad day.

So i guess what i have been thru rite now also can be the cause of my headache.

Anyway enuf of that negative vibes. I dont want you as my reader get infected with my negatives emotions. hehehe

on the other note...i thanked God i just submit my research proposal to our BKP. Yes for the 1st time i tried apply the HLP to further my studies. I have put my my very best effort in doing my proposal that i just hope i could get thru the 1st phase in my jabatan. Pray for me ya.

Talking about further studies. To be honest, i did plan it but after some time i just become lazy and lazy and forget about it. But i dunno maybe this is what people say 'sampai seru'. The journey was very hard actually. I have to change my topic for a few times. And finally the 4th topic i said ok this is it. So there it goes.

Im looking forward fto further my studies. Im not doing coursework because i chosed by research. If i get this hlp not only im focusing to my master but also homeschooling joshua. I have so many things to do for joshua. He need extensive class of therapies which i rarely have time for this time being.

Ok...

Till then...

God Bless.